So nobody knows it..

Anyway, my heart is pouring over with love for Mer x Ryan

I have this wish of a gif of them made from two specific scenes. Anyone want to make it for me..?

I am -as always- looking for a woman to role play Grey’s with. Despite my feelings for the show at this point..

Here are the criteria:

• You must be a female
• And must be a grown up
• We cannot -under no circumstances, in any way, ever- discuss ANYTHING that happened after the penultimate episode of S08 (I’m serious, don’t talk to me about it neither directly nor through the game itself; you know, unless you want me to kill myself.)
• I only ever play with one person per game because it’s impossible to be online at the same time the bigger the group gets
• Will arguably play any pairing EXCEPT Mark x Lexie!
  
• I’m playing Lexie
• I prefer *-style posts
• We can add or mix with Private Practice (but I haven’t watched S06 yet so no spoilers!)

In a nutshell:
I wanna play with a woman and we can work out something so long as it’s not Mexie.

If interested, please leave a message in my Ask Box

Checking out a blog, realizing it has GA content, and scrolling down anyways… I just couldn’t help myself 

I DON’T UNDERSTAND IT!

If you worship Lexie, how in the world can you reblog this terrible terrible thing?

Like/Reblog this if you post any of these shows:

Bones

Castle

Rookie Blue

The Following

Glee

New Girl

Go On

Pretty Little Liars

Grey’s Anatomy

Chuck

Gilmore Girls

Prison Break

I’ll check your blog and follow you if I like it :D I need a little bit of variety on my dash

Please read this, even though it’s somehwat between annoying and depressing!

I don’t know if anyone even keeps track of who unfollows them, let alone if those people would happen to read this, but I’m gonna say it anyway..

Prior to my test return to tumblr:
I’ve had to have a friend unfollow all blogs that contain contents of Grey’s Anatomy and Private Practice. The ladder, provided it proves to be free of ALL Grey’s Anatomy content (at least of anything starting with the S8 finale) I will follow again whenever the time comes that I manage to let go and watch the final season. To this day, I haven’t. I just can’t let go of it..

For anyone who hasn’t realized it by now:
Grey’s Anatomy was my whole life -specifically Lexie-  and after what happened, I’m.. destroyed.
If you think I’m exaggerating, well I have to check into a psychiatric clinic next month because I’m in so much emotional pain that my body hurts so much 24/7 that I can’t even go to work…
((I don’t care if you think I’m crazy or an emo or whatever.))
And I will not so much as read any mail or comment in reply to potential posts of mine that may very well trash Shonda. Though last time I checked people weren’t exactly fond of her anyway…

So, while I TERRIBLY miss Meredith and Alex, GA itself and I am almost dying to see their stories unfold, I simply CAN’T watch or read anything even remotely related to it because it would not only increase my missing the show but especially because the almost worst part of this nightmare to me is the idea of Meredith and co. moving on, just being okay again sleeping around and living life happily without her.
At this point I should mention I don’t want ANY comment in reply to that. Please nobody write me anything about anything that happened after the penultimate episode of S08. I positively cannot handle this!
I can’t even keep up with my Twitter dash because mere tweets about the show will drive me into sheer desperation. I’ve lost so incredibly much last year in the aftermath of this horrid season finale and I just.. want at least a tiny bit of it back. So I’m gonna try to get back on tumblr. And I hope I won’t stumble upon any GA because that would make me get off for good..

In conclusion: I have to stay off all GA blogs because of overwhelming pain and I need to pause from PP blogs to avoid spoilers (I would however love to hear from you PP blogs that can promise on their blogs I will find no GA content post the penultimate episode of GA S08 now or in the future).

I hate Shonda so much I I can’t breathe…

Lying in bed after I spotted a S9 picture.
Thoughts circling around Lexie.
Crying.
Can’t sleep.
I just want to die… :((((

Four FUCKING am and I can’t sleep because of YET ANOTHER TERRIBLE NIGHTMARE brought to be by that whore wannabe show runner Shonda!!

I can dodge the fucking posts online. I already had to give up on tumblr and Twitter…

But now the commercials for the second half of S8 have started in Germany and they’re on my favorite network so I’m trying to zap away whenever the commercial breaks are on but still I’m horrified to catch a glimpse of flight and oh my gosh once s9 gets here i’ll never ever turn my tv back on again!!

How can you kill Lexie Grey??? It’s like killing a child!! And this way???

Oh my god I can’t believe it or get over it I can’t be alone anymore I’m completely ruined fuck!!!

o0lexiekarev0o:

I dreamt all night about the Grey’s Anatomy S09 premiere and how scared I am trying and failing to dodge all content about it.

I’m so heartbroken I cried during the morning at the clinic. Calmly yet I started to choke then vomited because of how upset and heartbroken angry scared and desperate I feel about what Shonda the whore did to her….

Can’t be by myself anymore.. I’m going crazy. When I’m awake I’m crying with no pause. When I’m asleep I have nightmares every night. I’m so destroyed…

Why would anyone still watch Grey’s Anatomy?

Don’t even bother spamming my ask with crap now