So far, the only Chrail tagged posts -except for one- are all my own posts. There are so many ships out there whose names just won’t mash like Jerry and Traci and that makes tagging really hard. But it works with Chrail, so can we do that??

You see I stream videos right? I open an episode.. click play and hit stop right away, so it will start to buffer but not play it. Then when it’s done I load the next ep and the next ep..

Then I watch the first video..  

So here’s what happened:

1. I was watching video #1 and I saw a scene that was so sweet that I tweeted how happy I was.. Then I stopped it and opened a video #4 to buffer…
2. Then I thought: Oh God, I am in a good mood.. WHAT IF this time I press play and stop but instead of stoping it will play? WHAT IF I get a major spoiler this way? WHAT IF that spoiler is that my OTP broke up bc she cheated on him with his best friend?
3. Like I’m paranoid right?
4. So I went back to video #1 and.. suddenly I hear another video.. and.. it starts with a major spoiler… saying that..my OTP is over…bc she cheated on him with his best friend..so uh..

Like..5 seconds..after I said I was FOR ONCE really cheerful..
So uhm..yeah now I’m crying and nobody gets that and nobody is here and uh..just..had..to get it all out there even though nobody probably reads this anyway..

and i have to go babysitting in less than an hour..so i have to get my act together and all i really wanna do is keep crying..

It’s like that with everything.. EVERYTHING no matter how big or small a deal.. the universe tries to condition me to not be happy.. 
And those few of you who actually know me know my mother.. and it’s crazy but I have no one else so I went to her.. and she just says it’s like that with everybody but it is NOT! Not EVERYTHING goes wrong for everyone.. Some people look forward to sth and it does NOT end up in a disaster.. Some people actually are like: Cool i’ll go to a concert or meet my friend or go to vacations and they actually DO!

Me? No. No never. Everything I plan, everything I look forward to, everything I love or like or get happy about FAILS. EVERYTHING. EVERY SHOW EVERY SHIP EVERY RELATIONSHIP EVERY DAY EVERY SCHOOL EVERY JOB EVERY FREAKING JOY GETS TORN APART.

I’m so tired…I’m SO tired… I can’t do this anymore…… 

(Source: o0lexiekarev0o)